“It’s Only A Fucking Cigarette!!”

The Fucking Cheek Of It!!

I am standing outside my apartment when this guy approaches me….

“Give me a fag dude”

My eyes roll

FAG? DUDE]

Hello Darling that’s not my mothertongue

When I said No

The fucker FLIPPED

“It’s Only A Fucking Cigarette!”

ONLY?

I replied, this box cost me  ONLY £8.75

I am no rich bitch and smoking is one of life’s little pleasures of mine (SAD I KNOW)]

But buy your own,

And why your at it, work on your fucking attitude CUNT!

“It’s Time To Love Yourself”

I have not been feeling my best of late, with having a serious Kidney Infection and all….

Taking a large amount of pills is taking pills with my mood and feeling tired 24/7 but hey C’est La Vie!!!

I just keep thinking back to what the doctor told me on Saturday….. “It’s Time To Love Yourself”

I never quite knew what it meant to love yourself, I started making lists of all the bad things I have done to my body…. Drinking too much / smoking over 30 a day…. taken Drugs….. all things I thought would give me a day or two side effects……. but maybe this is my body’s way of saying “THOMAS, SERIOUSLY STOP HURTING ME” which is doctors terms means to Love Myself???

Hmmm I feel so confused right now……………….