THE TIMES Article Here

My TIMES Article ‘Wasted Youth’

Just found an old newspaper which featured an article I had written for The Times newspaper in 2006.

I was asked to write about my eating disorder, as part of the UK’s Eating Disorder Awareness week, I had been sugarcoated for weeks by the magazines journalist, who promised to help me with a book I was writing.

Only to find Monday morning, my photo appearing with the headline ‘WASTED YOUTH’ on the front page, I was embarrassed, and felt I had been taken advantage off.

I only took the offer, of the promise of getting help with my book, I can assure you I was never paid to take part, nor was I ever offered any help/support for my book.

It was a start of my adventures in the media world, where I learned people will use and abuse you no matter, if your young or ill, if a journalist has to use a headline to sell papers, they will do it.

I guess I can say…. within hours my face was used to wrap some greasy fish and  chips…….. which also sums my life as well… LOL

C’est La Vie and FUCK YOU ‘THE TIMES’

From – To + How Life Can Change….

My friend called me today………… He has just been dignosed with HIV……

His tears gave me a pulling feeling inside my chest………

I know my post might offend people suffering from HIV… and I really hope it does not, but I promise you all, I would never go out my way to hurt somebody’s feelings.

This friend, was not just a friend, I have not seen him in over a year…. I guess you could say we was drinking buddies with MAJOR sexual benefits…

I have had a HIV scare myself, and I found it terrifying, even with the msgs saying “Don’t worry, its fine, just take the meds, and you will live a long life” I could only think to myself…. yes Long, but will it be happy?

My friend is question is not on any of my social media profiles, otherwise I would never write this blog…… My feelings turned to anger, when he suggested that we could continue to see each-other… and have BB (no condom) sex together….

When I said are you kidding me….. you should wear a condom……….

His reply was “LOL stop being frigged”

Shouly not wearing protection is the reason he got into this place in the first place right???

(I’m sorry that’s not suppose to offend)

I just think regardless of people with or without HIV, people don’t take their health/life people seriously….

When finding out people don’t go for regular checks, I find it disgusting…. to risk somebody’s life and their idiotic reply “I never knew I had it” just does not work anymore, expecially with the free health checks we get into this country.

I am sad to say I have no value in my life…. I think I am fat and UGLY and worthless yet why am I so afraid and judgmental about people who clearly don’t value theirs ever???

My mind seems to be a ticking BOMB of thoughts………… thoughts that’s scare me!

Today I lost a little more of my  protective bubble………………

“It’s Time To Love Yourself”

I have not been feeling my best of late, with having a serious Kidney Infection and all….

Taking a large amount of pills is taking pills with my mood and feeling tired 24/7 but hey C’est La Vie!!!

I just keep thinking back to what the doctor told me on Saturday….. “It’s Time To Love Yourself”

I never quite knew what it meant to love yourself, I started making lists of all the bad things I have done to my body…. Drinking too much / smoking over 30 a day…. taken Drugs….. all things I thought would give me a day or two side effects……. but maybe this is my body’s way of saying “THOMAS, SERIOUSLY STOP HURTING ME” which is doctors terms means to Love Myself???

Hmmm I feel so confused right now……………….

Opps I Outted Somebody OnThe Shop Floor

So today and huge muscle queen walked into my workplace, I noticed him instantly

Only Because…..

Last week, I was rubbing my hands over his rock hard abs in Compton s and HE LOVED IT…

I approached him to say hello,

He was wearing the same ‘Fitness First, Personal Trainer’ t-shirt he wore at the bar.

“Hey Remember me”

I said with a BIG smile on my face, his face dropped…..

“Who’s This Baby” a beautiful  Spanish approached putting her arms around him…

He looked puzzled…

I decided to save his skin

“He used to be my personal trailer at Fitness First”

She laughed, and they both left the shop

2nd married man I have come across, is the world seriously FULL OF GAYS???